Big red truck

Happy Remission!

Cancer remission brings interesting perspective on many things, especially when two friends diagnosed and treated within the same few of Dale's diagnosis have already passed away. Another, one year ahead of Dale, also passed away a few months ago. Each had very similar (lymphoma) if not the very same (mantle cell lymphoma) cancer. Dale wants to do what is right, get things in order, and be a productive, happy man. So....on Black Friday, he left the house for a few hours, returning with a great big 4-wheel drive, red extended cab, truck--which barely fits inside the garage. It really is a beautiful vehicle and he feels better. Must be a man thing. However, when he took the car in that I wrecked on his first day of chemotherapy, he had an emotional detachment period. Driving the truck helps him get over it though.

Today is day Day 330 of bone marrow transplant. Still going strong, although he has a cold--enough to work from home for the third day.

Better days are coming

Dale had his quarterly blood work and check up this week. Report is good. Blood is progressing well and it looks good. They scheduled CT and PET scans again in a couple of weeks to keep ahead in case mantle cell lymphoma sneaks back. They told him the first two years past bone marrow transplant and chemotherapy is most critical time, so the CT and PET scans are to catch anything unusual early enough to treat it. He still continues with diarrhea problems and does not really know what to do to curb the urgent needs.  Stress never helps. He is a pretty good sport and looks forward to better days ahead, AKA, retirement.

Steam cleaners

Things have gone well lately. Dale has worked longer days more frequently, energy level increasing, and sense of wellness stabilizing. It is as though last year did not really happen, except we know it did. Our memory of events is vague until someone or something brings it to the front. Strange how the mind protects itself when necessary. Yesterday, day 300 since bone marrow transplant. Almost one year.

However, Dale still has situations occasionally. Usually at home but sometimes elsewhere. Once I got home yesterday, I knew something was amiss: laundry going, smell, and Dale more than his normal exhaustion. Twice. Once at work, another as soon as he arrived home. I am grateful to the steam floor cleaner we have. Works nicely, especially on the wood floors.

I don't know the causes of the ongoing diarrhea, other than the chemo reactions. It does not seem to be sensitive to a particular food. I believe the mantle cell lymphoma treatment further weakened his digestive system. I do not think the cancer is back, yet. They say 3-5 years and it will return. For now, we are about 65% of our normal lives. I am even making progress on dissertation proposal. Just the other day, as I continued on with my day of crazy work, I thought to myself that I finally felt that I am functioning at about 85%. Still more to go, but much, much better.

Harping doesn't work

Last week Dale told me he felt better, his energy slightly increased, and closer to normal although not there yet. Unfortunately, there are many responsibilities at work that demand his presence. Recovery time between work days may become somewhat limiting. He will need to rest as much as possible to do what he needs to do. I will have to quit harping at him to do stuff! I mean, after all, he looks fine!

Dale has situations at least once a day now so daily laundry loads have begun. The tests said there was some inflammation but nothing to be concerned about. My take is the chemo and bed rest killed off acids and muscle he needs to control, but what do I know?

In trouble at work

He is doing okay. Dale has good days, and not so good days. The last few days--good. Makes it sooo much easier on me. He put in almost a whole day of work today and got in trouble with his boss for being there as late as he was. Good for her for keeping him in line. It takes a whole city to take care of Dale! I appreciate the assistance. Recovery time mentally and physically is needed and appreciated. Thank you again, Dale's work people! He needs social interactions at work and I need Dale's mental well-being in tact. Thank you, thank you for knowing his needs.  

One way to get good rest

Dale's Upper GI Endoscopy tests on Friday, looked fine. Doctor took biopsies for more information but said nothing looked unusual. Dale told me he enjoyed the good rest he had while the procedure was completed, however, a bit expensive...

Energy level remains low.  Feelings of non-productivity and depression increase. One more day, one more test completed. He wants to give up, not wake up, and be done. His mortality may be earlier than he hoped for before cancer diagnosis and treatment, but it is not as fast as he seems to want it to be. Sad that he feels this way. Each day of life brings another opportunity to learn, serve, and become a better person. Dale, does not see it that way now. His focus, energy, and purpose has diminished. Sad because we have many reasons to be grateful each day.

PET Scan Results :)

Test results found nothing significant, however, they are ordering a GI specialty test for Dale. His digestive system does not do well, therefore, diarrhea and nausea, continue. It is good news. He seems to feel relieved, yet wants to feel better.